Lihi Lapid’s novel, On Her Own, is a story of daughters, mothers, and grandmothers. Nina, the novel’s teenage protagonist, has run away from home following an argument with her mother over a long-held dispute about Nina dating an older man. On her first night with this older man, she witnesses his involvement in a murder. She runs from him into the arms of Carmela, a woman whose older son has died and whose younger son has moved from Israel to the US with his wife and children. Carmela, who’s losing her memory and her ability to think clearly, mistakenly believes that Nina, whom she discovered in the hallway of her building, is her granddaughter, Dana. Taking on this new identity of Dana, Nina develops a relationship with Carmela as she seeks shelter from other parts of her life.
On Her Own cycles through different perspectives, following characters and their various relationships. Expectedly, there’re passages from Carmela’s and Nina’s perspectives, but a significant portion of the book focuses on Irina, Nina’s mother, an immigrant from Russia who feels that she’s never been able to offer Nina the life that she wanted for her. As the novel moves between points of view, the reader gets an in-depth sense of each generation in the matrilineal line — how, despite the heartache they cause by diverging from each other’s expectations, their commitment to the other always rises to the surface. In that way, the novel is deeply moving, suffused with a love that’s stronger than apparent betrayal.
Lapid homes in on the conflicts that can come with an immigrant parent raising a child who was born in the country to which that parent has immigrated. Whereas Irina moved to Israel from Russia, and thus lives in a social class below the native-born Israelis, Nina was born in Israel and holds desires that rub up against her mother’s. Itamar, Carmela’s son, moved to the US and now feels out of place — he’s one of the few Israelis in his neighborhood, and he has difficulty bridging the physical and cultural gap between his mother and himself. Itamar feels this divide in the opposite direction, too, with his daughter, the “real” Dana, who rejects Itamar’s Israeli heritage and demands he not speak Hebrew to her. In all instances, the parents value their native culture; and in trying to pass it along — or, from the children’s perspective, impose it — they meet resistance that is both maddening and deeply understandable.
On Her Own’s plot is propulsive: there’s always the threat that Nina will be found by the older man she dated, or that Carmela and others will learn that Nina is not in fact her granddaughter. The pressure that Nina is under grows even greater as the reader discovers how the story unfolds on all sides. However, as a result of these shifts in point of view, certain relationships feel as though they get rushed, limiting the amount of intimacy that can be created. But this sense of being rushed appears only in the latter half of the book, when the plot accelerates toward its conclusion.
From start to finish, On Her Own is an engaging, illuminating story of family and injury. It examines grief, the fallacies of wishful thinking, and persistent hope in a way that many readers will find memorable.
Benjamin Selesnick is a psychotherapist in New Jersey. His writing has appeared in Barely South Review, Lunch Ticket, Tel Aviv Review of Books, and other publications. He holds an MFA in fiction from Rutgers University-Newark.