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Lov­ing Our Own Bones: Dis­abil­i­ty Wis­dom and the Spir­i­tu­al Sub­ver­sive­ness of Know­ing Our­selves Whole

By – June 10, 2024

Julia Watts Belser’s new book, Lov­ing Our Own Bones, is both a per­son­al and well-researched midrash that ana­lyzes how read­ers can rethink bib­li­cal inter­pre­ta­tions of dis­abil­i­ty. It also con­tem­plates the ways in which places of wor­ship — and soci­ety in gen­er­al — could be more inclu­sive to all types of bodies. 

As a rab­bi, schol­ar, wheel­chair user, and dis­abil­i­ty activist, Belser con­sid­ers how dis­abil­i­ty can shape our lives and enhance our spir­i­tu­al prac­tices. She views dis­abil­i­ty as a reg­u­lar part of life: near­ly every­one, she says, is dis­abled for dif­fer­ing lengths of time and at vary­ing degrees. This is espe­cial­ly true as we age. Just as fem­i­nist inter­preters have high­light­ed sex­ism in bib­li­cal texts, Belser con­fronts the harm that’s done to dis­abled peo­ple by valu­ing ableism, which she defines as a com­plex set of pow­er struc­tures that priv­i­lege cer­tain bod­ies or minds as nor­mal’ while des­ig­nat­ing oth­ers as abnor­mal.’” Instead of treat­ing dis­abil­i­ty as a mis­for­tune or chal­lenge to be over­come, Belser prais­es the cre­ativ­i­ty of dis­abled folks and cel­e­brates the per­son­al free­dom she gained when receiv­ing her first wheelchair. 

Belser ana­lyzes both Jew­ish and Chris­t­ian sacred texts through a dis­abil­i­ty lens, start­ing with the prophets. She dives deep into bib­li­cal pas­sages that involve Isa­iah, Jere­mi­ah, Jesus, Isaac, Leah, Moses, Miri­am, and oth­ers in order to touch on the ways that rab­bis and com­men­ta­tors have tra­di­tion­al­ly explained dis­abil­i­ty in these mon­u­men­tal texts. By reread­ing pas­sages through a lens of inclu­sion and dis­abil­i­ty, we can under­stand the rela­tion­ships between these bib­li­cal char­ac­ters in new ways. Belser’s analy­sis of Isaac’s blind­ness, which caus­es him to bless Jacob instead of his eldest son, Esau, is par­tic­u­lar­ly fas­ci­nat­ing. Belser describes the sen­si­tiv­i­ty that blind peo­ple tend to have, espe­cial­ly when it comes to touch and hear­ing, mak­ing it odd that Isaac does not fig­ure out Jacob’s ruse about his iden­ti­ty. Isaac’s fail­ure to get it right reflects one of the ongo­ing strug­gles that dis­abled peo­ple face: the urgency to be excel­lent and prove stereo­types wrong. 

Through­out the book, Belser explores oth­er chal­lenges that dis­abled peo­ple have encoun­tered, many of which stem from gate­keep­ers who decide if [they] qual­i­fy for dis­abil­i­ty ben­e­fits or insur­ance cov­er­age, for school pro­grams, accom­mo­da­tions, or sup­port ser­vices.” She wants to live in a world where peo­ple stop shy­ing away from dis­abil­i­ty by over­look­ing it or pre­tend­ing to ignore it. Belser argues that dis­abil­i­ty is bound up with the sto­ries of our lives, with mem­o­ry and per­son­al his­to­ry and a sense of who we are.” She is call­ing for an end to the pow­er struc­tures that restrict access, agency, resources, and self-determination.” 

Toward the end of the book, Belser details her Shab­bat obser­vance, which involves not using mon­ey or her phone and is often qui­et and soli­tary. She explains how the use of elec­tric wheel­chairs and oth­er assis­tive tech­nolo­gies is viewed as a vio­la­tion of com­mu­nal Shab­bat norms, such that the rules for keep­ing Shab­bat get weaponized” against their users. Belser states, I would like to see a world where more com­mu­ni­ties com­mit to includ­ing Jews with dis­abil­i­ty exper­tise in the process of mak­ing halakhic deci­sions, a world where dis­abled Jews help shape these con­ver­sa­tions and nego­ti­ate practice.” 

Lov­ing Our Own Bones is a call to action for cler­gy, edu­ca­tors, deci­sion mak­ers, and soci­etal lead­ers to con­sid­er the ways soci­ety can be more wel­com­ing and inclu­sive to all people. 

Jamie Wendt is the author of the poet­ry col­lec­tion Fruit of the Earth (Main Street Rag, 2018), which won the 2019 Nation­al Fed­er­a­tion of Press Women Book Award in Poet­ry. Her man­u­script, Laugh­ing in Yid­dish, was a final­ist for the 2022 Philip Levine Prize in Poet­ry. Her poems and essays have been pub­lished in var­i­ous lit­er­ary jour­nals and antholo­gies, includ­ing Fem­i­nine Ris­ingGreen Moun­tains Review, Lilith, Jet Fuel Review, the For­ward, Poet­i­ca Mag­a­zine, and oth­ers. She con­tributes book reviews to Jew­ish Book Coun­cil as well as to oth­er pub­li­ca­tions, includ­ing Lit­er­ary Mama and Mom Egg Review. She has received an Hon­or­able Men­tion Push­cart Prize and was nom­i­nat­ed for Best Spir­i­tu­al Lit­er­a­ture. She holds an MFA in Cre­ative Writ­ing from the Uni­ver­si­ty of Nebras­ka Oma­ha. She is a mid­dle school Human­i­ties teacher and lives in Chica­go with her hus­band and two kids. 

Discussion Questions

In Lov­ing Our Own Bones, rab­bi, schol­ar, and activist Julia Watts Belser draws on her own expe­ri­ence with dis­abil­i­ty to offer a pow­er­ful new read­ing of the Jew­ish tra­di­tion. Her chap­ter on Moses’s reluc­tance to serve as a prophet because of his speech imped­i­ment is par­tic­u­lar­ly mov­ing. Here, Belser argues that Moses’ dis­abil­i­ty is part of God’s plan for him and for the Israelites, thus affirm­ing his place as a leader. In this light, his staff can now be seen as an assis­tive device. 

Despite its seri­ous moments, the book remains pos­i­tive and for­ward-look­ing. Belser’s inti­mate, direct tone opens up new avenues for spir­i­tu­al explo­ration. Dis­abil­i­ty — which, as the author notes, will touch near­ly every­one at some point — becomes an oppor­tu­ni­ty for those who are will­ing to appre­ci­ate the unique per­spec­tive it brings.